Heavy Heart

7 Apr

In the ongoing saga that is my attempt to wrangle some normalcy in my life, last week I started taking Wellbutrin.

Before I go in to the awesometastic weight loss side effects, let me first say that I had no idea how depressed I was before I took an anti-depressant.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not typically the “I poop rainbows and oh my golly, isn’t that kitten adorable and isn’t life just super-de-duper perfect. If you agree, repost this as your Facebook status!”. Seriously. Puke.

I’m more of the “Life is pretty awesome, but looked at this super fucked up shit over here! Let’s bitch about stuff now and judge people.” You know, but in a nice way.

But moreover, I knew I wasn’t my normal self. I had lost interest in a lot of things I normally enjoy…hanging out with friends, spending time with my children (sorry, kids), ((cough)) blogging ((cough)).

I was just down.

Every day. It didn’t matter what was going on. I could be driving my car in the beautiful Seattle sun (I know, right? What sun this year? It freakin’ SNOWED in the North End yesterday!!) and I would still be all “Blerg.”

Until I started taking the Wellbutrin.

It seriously was immediate. Everything didn’t bug the shit out of me like it did before. For Christ’s sake, today I SMILED, FOR NO REASON, while driving and singing like a crazy person to Ke$ha (goddamn her and her catching tunes. And that stupid “$” in her name, too).

I’m now a week and a half in and I feel great! I’m more motivated to blog and do housework.

Okay, not so much the housework, but that ain’t a depression problem. That’s more of a “Ugh, really?!” problem.

Song title: Heavy Heart by Daryl Stuermer

2 Responses to “Heavy Heart”

  1. yourownpersonalstalker April 7, 2011 at 8:34 am #

    that makes me so happy for you, i could shit a rainbow.

    and this just made my day. im going to put it on my resume -> “Life is pretty awesome, but looked at this super fucked up shit over here! Let’s bitch about stuff now and judge people.” ok, maybe ill just put it on my fb quotes section.

  2. yourownpersonalstalker April 7, 2011 at 8:36 am #

    uhm, that first line was sincere by the way. i feel the need to clarify since most everything i say is sarcasm or snark. :)

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